Making a Change

I have come to the decision that while it may be hard to actively try to loose weight, I can atleast try to maintain my weight. I cannot afford to put any more fluff on my body no matter how much I talk about loving body figures of larger size. I do love curvy women and am proud that I can feel beautiful, but I cant change the fact that I have lumps in areas that are not supposed to be there. I cant deny the fact that I already have asthma that is exacerbated by my size and that diabetes and high blood pressure run in my family.
I realize that I have a lot of stress in my life like many folks, and I decide to cope with that through food. I am a foodie, I love cooking, and I especially love eating and this is what I go to for comfort. I have decided I need to actively search for new comforts or I will just continue to blow up like a blimp. I have new obsessions with tea and pampering cosmetics. Today I went to the tea shop and purchased 3 rather expensive teas but the happiness and excitement I got from splurging on them is much better than what a plate of waffles could give me. This first step is accomplished in making a good substitute. I also splurged at the organic body cosmetic shop buying body scrubs and lotions and shower treats. Aroma therapy at night when I cannot sleep should do me better than grabbing a bowl of cereal.
The money that I spent today looks outrageous for tea and body scrubs you could get at the 99 cent store but if compared to the money I spend on dining out and treats from the grocery store there is an equal sized bill and the benefits from today's purchases will benefit me more. I am not expecting this to be my fix all, I know I still have farther to go. I just know that I need to start somewhere at the source and the source is stress. I have a lot of it and I silently cope, but hopefully now I will cope by bettering my body with anti-oxidant rich tasty teas and moisturizing organic lotions instead of continuing to hurt it.